She is Imperfect!! Hell she is imperfect in every sense of the word. She is aware of her imperfections ..she doesn’t mince her words when it comes to her choices and interests. She doesn’t speak much to a lot of people. Lots of people are close to her but she is close to very few of them. She has her own set of parameters to evaluate/judge people and she is fully aware that those parameters are flawed but she is comfortable with it. For Now!

I am one of the fortunate few who she is close to and probably one of the closest to. I know a lot about her. A lot more than any other living person can claim to know and Yet there is a world inside her which is raw, untouched and completely pristine. This world is super dark and full of her darkest secrets which she doesn’t like to share or be judged about. I am aware of the existence of that hidden world. She has at times tried to give me a peek of that world and just expected me to not be judgmental or bothered. I have screwed it up at every turn!!

There is a problem..it is not entirely mine or hers. but definitely it is there. I know it..she knows it..I want more ..i want exclusivity..i want things i cannot have. She wants me but not in the same way..She wants my presence in her life..she wants to share her thought and feelings with me.her highs and lows. Her positives and negatives.. However, she is a slave to her vanity and desires and so am I.

It was 12th August 2018, my maiden trip to Kenya and